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Oh Ohoohwooe Oooh Ooohhwooe Nobody wanna see us to...
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Ooh, ooh
Oh, oh, oh
Yeah
You can hardly wait to tell all your friends
How his kisses taste sweet like wine
And how he always makes your heart skip a beat
Ev'ry time he walks by
And if you're feeling down, he'll pick you up
He'll hold you close when you're makin' love
He's ev'rything you've been dreaming of
Oh, baby

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes lookin' deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you, all I am
Is the invisible man
(Yeah)
(Oh, oh, you don't see me, baby)
You prob'ly spend hours on the phone
Talkin' 'bout nothing at all
(Talkin' 'bout nothing at all)
It doesn't matter what the conversation
Just as long as he called (oh, oh)
Lost in a love so real and so sincere
And you wipe away each other's tears (each other's tears)
Your face lights up whenever he appears
Oh
I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes lookin' deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know
I'm alive
Baby, to you,
all I am
Is the invisible man
I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes lookin' deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you, all I amIs the invisible man

I see you all the time, baby
The way you look at him
I wish it was me, sweetheart
Boy, I wish it was me
But I guess I don't love you enough

Oh, oh, oh

Oh, baby, the invisible man
You don't see me, girl
But I love you
Yes, I love you (the invisible man)
Oh, oh, oh
Yeah, yeah, the invisible man
Baby, baby, baby, yeah
The invisible man



hey to the girl i like.. if u ever come to my blog.. this is how i feel everytime i see you! just my feelings and thoughts. i hope one day my dream come true!


joel :: email ::
|12:36 AM|
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suppose i have to change b4 i'm gonna start thinking of gfs..


well a stupid holiday overall.. it sucks big time.. it's like emo holiday. and yeah
haha
maybe last 2 weeks or 3 weeks of holidays is the most eventful??

well for the past 17 days i'm with shaun... it's like i've never ever been with that person for 17 days b4 so darn long lol.. yeah i had a great time with him though. thanks shaun for being there.. anyway i'll be there for u too haha

school's starting so no outing.. awww hack it i dun care.. i'll still go out
okok i'm gonna start changing ppl


joel :: email ::
|1:11 AM|
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Oh

Ohoohwooe

Oooh

Ooohhwooe

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you babe

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you babe

Cause we gon' fight

Oh yes we gon' fight

Believe we gon' fight

We gon' fight

Fight for our right to love yeah

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together

Nobody thought we'd last forever

I feel I'm hopin' and prayin'

Things between us gon' get better

Men steady comin' after you

Women steady comin' after me

Seem like everybody wanna go for self

And don't wanna respect boundaries

Tellin' you all those lies

Just to get on your side

But I must admit there was a couple secrets

I held inside

But just know that I tried

To always apologize

And I'ma have you first always in my heart

To keep you satisfied

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you babe

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you babe

Cause we gon' fight

Oh yes we gon' fight

Believe we gon' fight

We gon' fight

Fight for our right to love yeah

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you

Got every right to wanna leave

Got every right to wanna go

Got every right to hit the road

And never talk to me no more

You don't even have to call

Even check for me at all

Because the way I been actin' lately

Has been off the wall

Especially toward you

Puttin' girls before you

And they watchin' everything

I been doin' Just to hurt you

Most of it just ain't you

Ain't true

And they won't show you

How much of a queen you are to me

And why I love you baby

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you babe

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you babe

Cause we gon' fight

Oh yes we gon' fight

Believe we gon' fight

We gon' fight

Fight for our right to love yeah

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you

Oh oh oh oh oh

Cause I got you

Cause I got you

Ooooh

Cause I got you babe

Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you babe

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you babe

Cause we gon' fight

Oh yes we gon' fight

Believe we gon' fight

We gon' fight

Fight for our right to love yeah

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no Cause

I got you babe

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you babe

Cause we gon' fight

Oh yes we gon' fight

Believe we gon' fight

We gon' fight

Fight for our right to love yeah

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no

Cause I got you




sigh these are my heart words.

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joel :: email ::
|10:38 PM|
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tears of sadness filled my day.
he's not gonna make it another month i'm afraid so.
i just can't take it anymore. pressure is building up. her him, everyone i just wanna end this. END ALL OF THIS..

that's where i have to say, so much more but i'm despaired.

i wanna end this.

i love her..

We write to apologize.
We ask to look past life as it goes by.
I know you have sacrificed time,
Life, love, time to fly.
Please consider all things trite,
Forgiveness will be the thing that gets us by.
I know to have something like this
Broken is hard to fix.
Embers, we're burning bridges down.
Envelopes stuffed with feelings found.
To write this down as means to reconcile.
We write to patch things up,
Maybe not to agree but to proclaim love.
Let's look ahead and then we'll see the one
Whose glory never ends.
And based on that we'll see,
There'll be room for change,
but gradually.
I know to have something like this
Broken is hard to fix.
If all is said and done and over,
If we don't have to, we're not going to.
Make the change, it's worth the try.
What's broken can be fixed tonight.

baby if u see this just wanna let u know even though u dun wanna be back by myside i'm still here if u need me in any point of time.. but just let me let u know that i need u know in this period of time badly. i need ur shoulder to lean on. many things are happening.


joel :: email ::
|12:09 AM|
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i ran i tripped i tumbled.
i cried i begged i smiled.
i smiled i walked i fell.
i got up i walked and LAUGHED i STUMBLED.

i love her so damn fucking much and that's all?!?!?! that's all end just on the day i introduce her to my relatives. what is this. i love her getting her a dog getting her a camera. nth appreciated. what is GOD up to?
i get scolded i get mocked i get condemmed i get critisied i get fucked. so what is this? am i turning heaven to hell? or is heaven turning to hell for me?

i mean yes i know she's doing so many things to hurt me. i STILL LOVE HER DEEPLY. I CRY FOR A DAMN DAY. AND A POP OUT EYES WHAT TO DO!!!!!

All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I

I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Til that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart
'Til my dying day


joel :: email ::
|9:32 PM|
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Baby I love you
and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy
I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and
I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy
I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time
From the day I met you
I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you,
and I wanna have your kids
It can never compare to the feeling of your kisses
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me thank God that I live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt, in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Enjoyed everyday, that I spend with you
And I wont miss you cause
I'm happy that I had you at all
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replacedI love you,
yes I do I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time



it's been a tiring 1 month for me and things sucks. clubbing's just a form of taking my mind away. not a form of medication to heal me! FUCK!!!! gosh i cry i beg i laugh i sulk i smile i grin just in this 1 month am i mad! i'm missing her so fucking much!!1 HELP GOD help me pls... sighz take her to my blog and love me! sigh


joel :: email ::
|2:52 AM|
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So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
I..I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside
I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
I...I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me,
I..I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've gotYeah,
it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got


hey people had a good time of my life last night
gotta admit that ytd was the best of time of my life in my clubbing life so far haha.

WOOO!!!!!

hey baby if only u can still be with me


joel :: email ::
|10:49 AM|
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